Gossamer
When Jeffrey asked me about an impossible word last
year, I went with what was making me impossibly happy right then and there: the
feeling, two Sidecars into the evening, that we were all safeguarded in this
invisible but palpable frame, that (figuratively, mind you) beautiful, silken
threads could frame the night, suspended and strange. Gossamer in that moment
for me meant the marvelous impossibility
of realizing your own frame. The surety that you can touch something, but
its lying just beneath tactile sensation. That place of solid certitude, the OED, yields
up a greater lightness of touch than with most entries: “a fine, filmy
substance, floating in the air in calm weather” – “Of things,” it specifies,
“both material and immaterial” (you can’t narrow down gossamer) – there’s an
alternative spelling: “gossamour” – it turns out you can be gossamered if
you’re ever overlaid with what you can’t really take a hold off. I’m gossamered
by so many things.
Gossamer is sought on at
least three scales: there are the tiny spiders who spin a special kind of
thread specifically meant for “ballooning,” for hopping on and letting the wind
take you. There is the fabric, light and sheer which you can only ever feel
slip between your fingers. That’s the stuff that seizes your haptic
imagination, cool and intertwines between your fingers. That’s what we can feel
by looking. If you uncover your first image, you’ll see the angel with black
wings pressed against Christ in the Man
of Sorrows by Meister Francke holding Christ through gossamer fabric. Your
fingers sliding in a widening arc over the screen to make the picture bigger can
almost touch it. How light Christ’s body becomes when it is gossamered! Next
image down, Veronica holds the veil that Christ pressed his face into, that now
holds his image: divinity suspended in gossamer. The third image is a detail,
so we can marvel at gossamer’s that been folder, a neat fabric to unfold
carefully to reveal Christ, an impossibly thin application of paint on panel to
make us desire touch. Gossamer’s third scale weighs the same as the spiders as
the fabric: the planet Jupiter has two gossamer rings, both named for nymphs,
Amalthea and Thebe, taken by Jupiter, now fated to frame him. They have a
thickness of 2300 km - gossamer depths and textures that are impossible to the touch, but never to the haptic imagination.
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